ok ...

my social life was next to nothing ... yet ... all this time that I spent alone ... watching people ... their behavior... how they react and what they say ...taught me a lot ... and most importantly... is that only a very few number of people can come closer ... and that's how it was ... the people that I do know and trust are numbered ...not because they were the only one that I met ... and not because they were the only one available... but because they were the only one that I felt OK and comfortable with... and I felt that it is safe that they come closer....I wonder if they are reading this ... and I hope that they recognize themselves ... I may not be a very good judge of character ... but my sense never lied to me ... and that's all that I had ... my sense which grew a lot stronger now that I am a ghost ...