... If you are onr of my friends... don't try to relate what i write to people or events that you know about my life... it is a simple fantasy ...

Friday, January 31, 2014

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I am Sarah... I am a ghost... and still I can't focus .... my concentration problem is still there....I can't even have a break...I see every face... hear every voice and recall every event in my mind whenever I close my eyes ... I wish I had a switch on and switch off button...I still think too much though I know it is pointless... I still worry too much though I am sure nothing is ever going to change... I thought that it would go away...and it did...only for a couple of days... then it came back again... human or ghost...this seems to be my destiny ....

mind??


one of the things that I have always wanted to do was to read people's mind....it took me lot to learn who to trust...and sometimes I still wonder if I learned my lesson properly...yet this is not the very need behind my wish... I mostly needed to know how people feel about me...I who lived an independent life...watching people...trying to understand their behavior.... I only let very few people get closer to me....but even for those few people there was always doubt if they want to be with me as much as I want to be with them...and there was always this big fear that one day I will make the mistake that will push them away for ever ... I know that sometimes "I too much everything" but this is not the case... it is just that I hate the non sense... and whatever I do, say, or get involved in must have a meaning...and must be true....even in the simplest matters ...that's why it was important for me to know how the other felt about me... to know how what I believed was true ....I thought that being a ghost would give me this privilege...obviously I was wrong...seems to be that some facts must never be revealed... or may be later... when I become a more experienced ghost...I will acquire this ability ... Sarah the ghost