....i still remember that day ... one of our colleagues enclosed herself in the toilet ... we could hear her sobs ... and it didn't take us long to realize that she was going to put an end to her life... Daniel found her suicide note on her desk ... actually it was him who made us look for her ... his pale face ... he was shivering ... i forgot to knock he said ... i just went into her office ...and i found this on her desk ... i was not going through her stuff... it was a loose paper ... i went to put something on it...and i read it ... we must find her... she is going to kill herself ... Daniel was talking very quickly but his last sentence resonated ... a minute later we found her ... she wouldn't open ... we broke in... she was crying and holding a gun aimed to her chest ...
Angel!!! what are you doing !!!
that was not me ... that was not one of us ... that was the other female voice in this office... of course ... who else ... now i was scared ... Sarah was looking at Angel .. and the gun ... and she was moving towards her ...
what are you doing here? said Angel ... angry ...
but as if she was not completely aware of the situation sarah answered with the same tone ... :" no what are you doing? you want to kill yourself ... and leave me alone... i lived all my life alone... and now that i found you, you want to leave... what did i do? what did i do to deserve that you leave me? just know that if you kill yourself i will put an end to my life in less than a minute after that you do so... i tried this before... but if i try this time i will do what i want ..."
I stood there ... watching sarah moving closer ... it was too much to understand ... she was going closer ... Angel was less tense... she seemed willing to give up the gun ... but then as Sarah reached to take it... the inevitable happened ... a bullet ... a simple bullet to the chest and Sarah was lying in on the floor ...
it all ended in less than a minute ...Sarah was gone ...and there is nothing that could be done to take back that moment... and undo what happened ...
Adam... February 2002
So ... just a page in your diary ... where you wrote the events of this day ... the day I ... Sarah ... turned into a ghost ...
i stand in your house ... looking at all your stuff ... your portrait on the wall ... and oh me... stupid me ... i still miss you ...
i go through the pages of your diary... just events and events... i knew there was no room for me in your mind ...
